Venting that is not Facebook appropriate

Yes, it has been months and I return to blogging with a full blown poor me session.......Well my baby girl is 20 months now. People are right about it flying by! I'm still not feeling myself. For starters, I'm the heaviest I have ever been and the 100+ stitches I received in the nether region hasn't helped. And for the love of all things holy, don't suggest exercise and eating better as I know that's what needs to be done. That being said, working and parenting seriously don't fucking mix. I feed my family what is convenient and if healthy just happens to be part of that convenience well then whoopty fuckin hoorah. And excersise, well yeah it ain't gonna happen any time soon. Also, years ago before all my friends had a litter of children, there were a lot more gatherings and when I was pregnant I imagined how fun, albeit hectic, it would be for Violet to be a part of that. Well, those things don't happen much anymore. I get it though, its hard enough with one kid, trying to get all together with bunches of kids is super hard. The things I have tried to go to, Violet turns into a socially anxious leg hugging mamas girl so I just decline invitations. And the hardest part has to be the most selfish....I used to be the friend and family member everyone could count on and I find it so hard to be that person now. I can't jump in the car and go hug a friend and lay with her until she feels better. I cant be at a function hours early to help. And yes, being a mom trump any of that but that is who I fucking was. That shit defined me. I am still me but I'm a new me. And it has taken a lot of adjusting. I will wrap this up by saying thanks for the vent sesh. And one more thing, no matter what, I wouldn't trade a thing, except maybe my car for a more gas friendly one but that is another pity me blog in a whole other category.

Chair

I have been wanting to get Violet a chair. I've looked online over and over. i have found some cute ones but I refuse to pay $100 for one. I've checked in various stores from time to time but to no avail. Well an impromptu trip to ToysRUs brought upon their selection of chairs. I really wanted The backyardigans one but they were out so I gave in and bought the Tinkerbell one....AYYYYEEE really? Tinkerbell? Oh well she loves it and it was only $20.

 

 

 

Swing time

Now that we actually had a weekend of nothing to do and the weather was nice, we got a chance to hang up Violet's swing. I actually am going to be a Deebie Downer and say that I actually love the cold and rain and hate going outside but I realized that when it's nice out, my hermit self will have to get outdoors with Violet. Well this swing is a great start, she loved it!

Morning Time

 

I love that Violet wakes up so happy and ready to tackle the world. Not without a little Barney in her favorite chair first, of course.

Few and Far Between

Our evenings are quite routine around here. I get home from work and realize I should have done last night's dishes well, last night. I clean the kitchen while Tommy and Violet play. Next is dinner which consists of Tommy and I trying to teach Violet that she can not share her food with the dog. Then bath time. Followed by some play time, a bottle (because I just can't get rid of it yet) and some snuggles in the rocking chair where she usually falls asleep. Well tonight after the bath, Violet and I were playing in her room when all of the sudden she went to the crib and said "up". I was shocked. So I picked her up. Gave her good night love and laid her down thinking "no way is this really going to work" Well folks, it did. She wanted to go to bed and did so all on her own!! Oh man, if this is a new thing, I'm gonna love it. Hahahaha. I laugh because we all know it's one of those moments that we should cherish because they really are few and far between.

Sweet dreams all!

2010...The year I return to blogging

So it's been FOREVER since I have blogged and I am going to try my hardest to get back to it. I think it is a great thing to do for Violet to look back on.

So above is a collage of pics from Halloween, her 1st birthday and Christmas.

To catch everyone up, she started crawling in September and is still not walking. She says dada, mama, doggie, nana (banana), bye and hi. She'll copy what you say but those are the things that she knows and says. She has so many teeth already and the teething has not been a fun experience. She loves Mojo, our inside dog, and has become a Daddy's girl like you wouldn't believe. She has grown to love football and watches it with me and claps twice after I yell "Defense"...melts my heart

Violet continues to amaze me every single day.

I am still learning how to juggle motherhood, family relationships, friendships and work. It is unbelievably hard but I wouldn't trade where I am at for the World!

And the best news of all......

My beloved Saints are going to the Superbowl for the 1st time in franchise history....WOOHOOO

Breastmilk be gone

I've always been an emotional person but I have never been this emotional. My baby girl has weaned. Did I do everything in my power to be able to keep nursing, probably not. But I did do A LOT. My supply just couldn't keep up. I started leaving her with the mother-in-law a few weeks ago. It was time. I just couldn't keep bringing her to work everyday. And I had to work. Have you met the economy lately? It's a bastard. A bloody bastard! Did I always want to be a stay at home mom? Hell no. But that changed when I had her. I wanted to maybe work very part time, but that bastard wasn't going to allow it. And by bastard I'm still talking about the economy. I guess even very part time would not have mattered, I couldn't keep up after one day. Good news is that Vi has taken well to formula. She only seems to miss the boob at bed time and when she's not feeling well. Speaking of not feeling well, is it just a coincidence that she gets her first illness 2 weeks after not getting breastmilk exclusively? I opt to think not. Oh well. Another chapter of parenthood written. I loved breastfeeding. I miss it. Truly, deeply, madly miss it! I'm so thankful that I was able to do it for 7 months and that it was so easy for me and Violet. And this is all coming from someone who swore her entire pregnancy that "I'm not breastfeeding...EVER!" Wow. I can't even imagine saying that now.